Sorry aku jarang update my blog. Coz I usually tweet alot and that counts as blogging right? pasal aku ani nda jua brapa suka bekunyanyang banyak that's why I tweet. But at certain times, I do feel like rambling non-stop. Just typing endlessly, not knowing what I'm going to actually say next... macam now ani hahaha
Plus, due to popular demand (si mimi plg ganya tu) awhh, my only fan :D
... so I decided to blog here. I doubt anyone reads it anymore haha. Nevertheless, I blog for myself and self-amusement lol.
So back to topic. After years and years of not seeing the anak bulan lepas puasa, this year (finally) tenampak! I had a good LOL session with myself reading tweets on why Brunei finally tejumpa anak bulan. Ada pasal teropong baru tia, baru buka cover telescope tia, teleskop x-ray, orang lampuh nda keluar rumah and te-block the moon tia and macam macam lagi hahaha.
I felt happy for those staying in Brunei for raya. Although ada that tiny feeling of sadness because I couldn't join the hype. Another year not celebrating raya in Brunei.
Oh I'm stuck in the UK now btw. Pasal resit. Hahaha yeah, I could've went back to Brunei just for raya but I chose not to. For me, I think it would be a real waste of money. Aku ani nda bukan anak menteri apa jua lol. Gotta take responsibility for my own mistakes. My results lah tu kirakan heh. And umm plus aku nda suka the 16 hr airplane journey. Well, I guess that's how life rolls on me. Macam kek roll yang nada kaler HA LAME!
Living here and surviving UK... you'll learn one or two things about life. There's more pulang banarnya. I mean especially if you've been pampered from childhood sudah and then suddenly kena let go into the wild wild world. Crazy feeling man. I'm not saying I WAS pampered as a child but the fact that ada amah or mama or anyone who washes your clothes saja kira a little bit pampered wah tu. I know that money don't come easy unless you're 'genetically' rich or if you work for BSP or for the Sultan or something. But then again, even those rich people had to work for it. Easy or hard, it's God's will. It all depends on 'rezeki'. Hahah I dont think brapa kenamengena with rezeki but at least ada sikit plg :p
There's a difference between 'money' and 'rezeki' coz eventhough you have money, sometimes you CAN'T use it for some apparent reason and that means kau nada rezeki lah tu. For example kadangkadang orang manang 1 million dollars kah apa. Basically bulih quit kraja and all, right? buat business sendiri etcetc. But sometimes, these people yang dapat lots of cash cannot do anything with the money pasal ada accident tia, bayar ini bayar itu, utang, kana punk'd, all the food yang ia bali ia nda dapat makan pasal parut sakit, gigi patah, nda kanyang, nda puas, ilang makanan, samut curi pisang apa etcetc. Maybe it won't happen in one go ofcourse tapi kadangkadang terasa a part of you is missing and gradually decreasing.
On the other hand, poor people can get rezeki even if they get $5 a day. $1 untk bali nasi campur and $1 for minuman, dapat kanyang the whole day, kena bagi free food tia, kasut seken hen dua puluh sen. Atu kira rezeki jua tu. It's the satisfaction after acquiring something and using it for the benefit of yourself (and benefits that indirectly or directly untk God) coz semua di dunia ani sebaik-baik perbuatan, kami buat demi Allah kan? SESUNGGUHNYA. Hahaha I bet people are starting to get dissy about this.
Ohh, and since we're touching about God and religion and stuff. Some of you might notice fb kah or your friends or your friends' friends jadi alim. Or ngajut alim. Some of you might not like this, some might be thankful or some may be jealous or some just don't bother. I know pasal some of my friends cani rasa drg lol. I don't blame you all of course. Yes, it's kinda hard to believe that sometimes orang samsengsamseng minumminum ancak sana ancak sini SUDDENLY turns a 180 degree turn from bad to good. Whether it's real or temporary or untk show show off arah facebook, I'd be happy for them and wish for the better lah, yang long term. We can only ASSUME their intentions but only God knows and God only. We as good ummahs (forget ummahs, haha nda I dont mean it in a kasar way, at least a GOOD human being lah)... we should think of the better right? and I say, they're the lucky ones pasal kena bagi Hidayat cani ani.
Banarnya aku pun mau macam drg ani. Some of them are really keen on learning more and researching more about Islam. And as they get deeper, they do find meaning of the purpose our existence the dunia ani and hereafter little by little, then lamalama jadi bukit! But unfortunately aku, being my lazy self and maybe pasal bisikan setan jua malas kan cari these stuff ani. Although I do read a few books in my own time =] For me the most important thing that goes right into me is those words yang dari friends. Especially yang lama sudah into this religion (and when I mean 'into', i mean SOO INTO SAMPAI MASUKK BRABAISS YAW CAM KAU CUCUK JARI MU DALAM IDUNG SAMPAI TAMBUS KE KEPALA ORANG LAIN PULANG!! LOL but seriously) Jazakallah bros and sisters for sharing kamu punya wisdom with me. I could sampaikan arah orang lain but I'm just too scared to convey the wrong message coz i suck at relaying messages to someone else. Iatah aku nda suka chinese whisper. SCREW YOU CHINESE GAME!! hahaha
Ada plg banyak Firman and hadiths nya ani especially these past three paragraphs but I forgot all of them (yang precise ofcourse, ada bits and parts aku ingat plg but then macam useless jua tu kalau orang salah pikir) Sorry ahh to those yang mau tau. I'm quite bad at this =( and to those yang nda mau tau I'm sorry as well coz... kamu nda mau tau lol.
Nahh tu liat melarat wah. Aku atu kan cakap pasal raya. Guess I'll have to change the post title now hahaha.
Back to raya? hahaha I miss raya arah Brunei honestly. Didn't wanna tell my parents aku suka raya brunei and want to stay in Brunei like foreverrr till my parut malatop. Coz the guilt they could've felt sudah tah aku balik uk awal and aku nda mau balik brunei lagi, nada ku tahan tuu. Don't wanna burden them with my feelings hahaha but I know they'll be happy as long as they know I am. But then againnnn, who am I to complain compared to my other friends yang three or more? years yang nda beraya di brunei coz of studies arah negeri orang putih jua. Aku dua tahun jua ganya, jangantah dahuluu hahaha.
Awhh now I miss my friends lol. But nvm, a few more weeks then bruneians will come flocking into UK sampai aku pun sanak tu. I hope you guys are doing great over there. Me green with envy like green mountain deww haaaa shizzz apakan lame.
Here in manchester, drg start Eid on the same day macam Brunei jua but since time difference soo yeah hahaha Brunei dulu. But Hari raya sini is quite different from Brunei punya Raya. Here, it's only a day or two... sama macam Indonesia jua kali. Well atu mama ku cakap plg tu. Not like Brunei's two-week loooong house raping visits from one family to another. Atu tah siuk tu hahaaha. And sini in manch orang beraya nya malam malam mabuk. Hahaha Islam by name saja tsktsktsk. Butul Carlsbak, luarnya newspepar. Pacahh. And awu banyak orang pacah jua huhuhu.
Eh bah imma go to sleep. The noise outside sudah stop now. Bekas Eid parade or something. Banyak betuii police sirens and car honks tadi. Sikit lagi aku go Crowzero on everyone. Esehmen hahaha.
Bah Selamat Hari Raya readers! I'm gonna post up pics real soon insyaAllah. Pasal boring wah nada gambar ani. Long post lagi -__-" omg i didnt realise I wrote this long. Hahahah owell :D
Here are the pictoors! Taken from the days I came back to UK early.
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